Tuesday, December 11, 2007

Do I really have OCD?

*****Note: this is meant to be kind of a joke, yet somewhat serious. Its meant to be a lighthearted post to give a good laugh.*****
Do I? I don't know. I think I may. Here's what I know that I do: It all started with getting an over-the-toilet-rack for my towels. I realized quickly that I needed the space in my cramped hall closet, so I took the rack that a friend gave me about 2 years ago. Well, I had to divise a better way of folding my washcloths, hand towels and bath towels because of it. Why? Because they would be on a "display" of sorts, and I personally didn't like walking into my bathroom seeing things in dissaray that I apparently never cared about in the hall closet. Now, if anyone walked into my apartment unannounced, you would take a look around and say "Oh my! There's no way you're OCD! Look at this messy place!" But see, I don't like it messy. Its called, having 3 kids ages 6, 4 and 2. Plus, living in a 600 square foot apartment and not having room for even the basics. I would love to have nothing on the floors or even my countertops. The emptier those two things are the better it looks to me and the more calm and sane I feel. See? That right there is an OCD tendancy, isn't it? Since I started folding my towels specificially, pretty soon, I started caring about how I folded the rest of the laundry, too. Next thing you know, I have "places" for the canned goods to go in the cupboard. Now I didn't go so far as to label the places. Although I can say I have a great interest in a labeling machine. I'm just afraid that I would really go off the deep end if I got one. I have never labeled anything except just before Elijah was born, and that was on the cupboard doors so that my mom who was coming to stay with us for a week would know where to put things. But if I didn't have OCD I probably wouldn't have labeled the doors because I wouldn't have cared where she put the clean dishes! AAAHHHHHH!!!!! I would love to imply a rule about the kids' bookshelf. hehehe. But I don't want my kids growing up having this disorder. I know I don't have the disorder as bad as some people. I don't "count" when I wash my hands. (Those of you with full blown OCD know what I am talking about!) And I do not constantly bleach all hard surfaces. Unless we are going through a sickness. Then I do my outer door handle, the door handle to enter our building, the railing, laundry room, etc. Which doesn't make any sense, really. Except that it doesn't spread the germs to my apartment neighbors. Nice for them, but I probably picked it up from them in the first place!!! Maybe its not OCD after all. Maybe I just have control issues where I want to be in control and decide how everything should be. Is that what OCD is? A control issue? Hmmm...

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